I simply can not believe that summer break has come to an end. Our entire family has lived in denial of the fact that the kids would be loosing their freedom, we would have to get back to a schedule, and our life of lazy pool days and unlimited “Phineus and Ferb” over and over again would all be coming to an end. Keyan was THRILLED to be going back to school, McKenzy, Sidney, and Abby were moderately excited about starting kindergarten although they were very concerned about having a new teacher, and Jamahl faced the first day with great disdain. Many mornings over the last month, he would stand in front of the calendar counting the days and willing time to stop. It was heartbreaking.
As the day neared we had lots of questions about new teachers, new routines, new friends, and plenty of anxiety from all the kids. The good news was that besides mommy, no one had any tears that first morning. I was so proud of Jamahl. Despite the fact that he would rather be just about anywhere else, he put a smile on his face and braved his nemesis. As a parent it was one of those moments when I wanted to protect him from his fears but knew that it was one of those times that I had to let him fight his own battle. He did such a great job and continues to seemingly “enjoy” his days thus far.
The girls were a whole different story. They had new shoes, new backpacks (except for Sidney who can not find the PERFECT one), and they were ready to go. It was such a reminder of how they have eachother to lean on. While at times they may wish for some alone time, in cases like this there is certainly strength in numbers. I couldn’t help but think how lucky they are.
As for me…I had a nice quite lunch with Paul and than cried the entire time I was grocery shopping. I Know that I will learn to enjoy my time and use it to get my never ending “to-do” list narrowed down, but for now, I am allowing myself to grieve this new beginning. How is it possible that my babies are starting kindergarten and my first born is in third grade? Where will this journey take us, and how will the ride be? Change is hard…
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