A subconscious break

Six months…I do believe that is the longest time I have gone without updating the blog.  I have sat down more times than I can count and have just had an overall lack of motivation to write which is very unlike me.  People have been asking for updates, people have joked about it, people have been bugging my family members to bug me to write.  Is it a small case of stubbornness?  Has it been a hiatus of putting my life on display, have I had an overall lack of motivation for life itself?  Honestly, I think that small pieces of all of the above are true. But when I really look at why I have stopped blogging, I keep coming back to that my soul needed a break.  A subconscious break from worry about recording the moment and instead choosing to live in the moment.  My camera has spent more time at home in these last 6 months because I found myself being so  consumed with capturing the right pose, that I wasn’t participating in the activity.  I felt this first hand when in August, we took the entire family with us to Cincinnati.  It was a mini vacation of sorts interspersed with doctor appointments.  A few hours into the trip, I realized that I had forgotten my good camera.  I have had this happen on two other trips and both times, I have bought another camera so that I didn’t “miss” anything.  This trip, I had a sense of freedom.  I still had my phone camera that I could use to capture some special moments, but it was wonderful to create memories in my mind through my actions instead of capturing everyone else's actions to document.  So, I say that all to say….I will now play catch up.  I feel ready to pick back up my blogging “pen” and share with you our last six months.  I refuse to become overwhelmed by it, but instead am looking forward to going back through some very special times.  I apologize if the blog becomes confusing…hang on and enjoy the ride!